I don’t feel like putting up my Christmas decorations this year.
Yup. Don’t wanna. Don’t feel like dragging down the boxes that took me until February this year to bother putting away. Don’t wanna drag out the tree, wrestle with the ornament boxes, or hear a single jingling bell on any of the doorknobs in my house. I don’t want to bake Christmas cookies (but I’ll be happy to eat yours if you offer). You could say that I’m not “in the Christmas spirit”, but the truth is, I just feel like skipping the whole decorating thing for a little while.
|last year’s (nearly free) Christmas mantel|
Yup. Skip it. A DIY home blogger would like to humbly confess that the idea of exhausting herself on holiday decorations just seems like too much this year. It feels akin to making my bed each morning. Why bother?
There are a lot of others that are more worthy of a break – totally sure of that. And they’re putting up Christmas decorations. And creating Christmas cards, and making hot chocolate from scratch, and homemade wreaths to deliver to the neighbors. There are probably people reading this who can take my workload and raise me three-kids-with-inlaws-in-town. Then they’ll dismantle a bomb (don’t ask me why I always go there, I guess dismantle a bomb just seems both awesome and difficult), and still have the house ready with table seating for twelve. And I will happily sit on my ass and hold up a spoonful of strawberry ice cream in salute. But I’m not going to dig out the decorations from guilt that someone else can handle more. I don’t want to play the I’m busier than you game.
The simplest explanation is that my brain feels completely and totally fried. I don’t feel tired; I feel behind. I’ve enjoyed so much this year, and I’m happy and grateful for all the opportunities that have come my way. But my to-do list just keeps getting longer and I still haven’t even found the time to recount some of the cooler experiences (like being in a commercial!). And now that my first year of grad school has come to an end (for you new visitors, I’m getting my MBA while working full time and renovating a house by myself – better yet, read here), I just feel like hitting the pause button until the new year. I want to simply work on my home, spend time with family and friends, and completely disconnect from the things I just don’t feel like doing.
So while you may be wondering if that means I’m going on a blog hiatus, what I’m actually doing is quite the opposite: I’m looking at my December break from school as my opportunity to really focus on things that I always feel too spent to do. I’m going to take a few days off of work and relax, #sawdusttherapy style. I’m going to finish my first workbench and make progress on my dining room. I’m going to have friends over to see how the last year of DIY has treated me (the first entire year of DIY-ing on my own). I’m going to the gym and the salon. And I’m going to watch Christmas movies in bed instead of trying to recreate the holidays around the house.
Maybe mid-December, I’ll change my mind and you’ll at least see a tree (Uncle Knick-Knack the II) gracing the living room. But I’ve already got half of my Christmas shopping done, and I still don’t feel like making a move around the house other than caulking, priming, sawing, and using the air compressor. Perhaps, this Christmas, my holiday spirit will be the gift of completed projects and renewed energy for a productive 2013.
Or, you know, I might just watch TV for a month. There’s that.