I guess what I’m saying is that this is what happened to Scott and I. As clichéd as it sounds, we grew apart as two individuals rather than together as a couple. And while it is painful to experience, there is no bad guy here.
Which can actually make things harder.
To be fair to Scott, I think it would be in poor taste to rehash and pick apart the details of our relationship (and it’s end) to live forever on the web. Not only would it be private information shared indiscriminately for all to see, but since this is my blog, the story would only be from one side.
Instead, I can only share how I feel, which is difficult to pinpoint because my feelings are constantly changing.
Sometimes I’m sad, even though I know it’s for the best.
Sometimes I feel really frustrated.
Sometimes I feel thankful of the wonderful friends who have shown support (on both sides) and I’m hopeful about starting a new chapter.
It would be nice if I could take all the unpleasantness and immediately put it behind me like a bad paint color: one afternoon, and it’s gone, with no more thought to what was. But that would be pretty disrespectful to a relationship that lasted nearly four years, wouldn’t it?
As for the details on where everyone goes after this:
Scott has moved in with a friend of ours, and he’s taking Colby with him (rightfully so, since he’s Scott’s dog).
We remain friends, and I’ll still get to spend time with Colby when I feel like covering the house in dog hair again. Which actually might be quite often, since I can’t seem to resist his face!
As for the house, I own it solo, so there are no messy (or time-consuming) finances to figure out. And with Scott clearing out the guest bedroom completely, I have an entirely new room to furnish, design, and decorate. If there is a silver lining in all of this, it’s that I can easily find a project to keep my mind occupied. Definitely cathartic.
As for the blog, you may see a few (or maybe, a lot) of changes around the look, layout, and of course, my About Me section. I think I’ll even start this blog fresh tomorrow with a post so you can really get to know me.
So, as a friend of mine would say, that’s the what’s what. I’m very thankful for all of the wonderful experiences that Scott and I shared. Despite that it’s ended, I’m still glad that we were together.
I’ll open this post up for anyone who is wondering about anything I forgot to address.
I can’t guarantee I’ll answer them.
But you are free to ask.